Undeveloped Love 2: Pretention

Undeveloped Love 2: Pretention

By EiroL EneleJ

November 2 2009

How many times will I do this…?

To hide this hurtful look in my eyes…

How could I still manage to put a sweet smile into this tired lips…

When the pain I feel inside keeps eating my lonely heart…

I keep thinking that this dreadful feeling is from the past…

That I am still dwelling to my past…

But how can I convince myself when I know that the fact that hurts me is…

When I see you with a smile in your lips…

With a twinkle in your eyes…

With an intermittent light on your face…

And with happy and contented aura that surrounds you…

Only it was not intended for me…

I once had the chance to experience all of it…

It feels surreal…

I felt it in my heart….

But something happened along the way….

It’s just that along with the magical feeling, fear overrule my heart…

I told myself… I can never have the whole him…

I will never be enough for him …

So it would be better if at this early I’ll make a move to avoid him…

It would be better to shield my fragile heart from the coming heartache….

To make this coming misery quick and fast…

It’s just that it didn’t occur to me that what if….

What if this thing that I’ve been avoiding was the only things that could complete the whole me….

I don’t have the right to stop the things that are meant to happen for they will find the way…

I didn’t lessen the pain that I would feel for there could have been a chance to have a complete happiness but instead I chose the coward’s way…

Now there are so many what if’s in my mind that would never have the answer….

Now matte what I do, I cannot undo what I did…

That’s the sad thing when you had the single chance to make u happy but you just let it go just like that…

When you fall inlove

When you fall inlove

By EiroL EneleJ

November 1 2009

You just know.

You fall for no reason or you fall for so many reason.

You are ready or you are not.

Love like there’s no tomorrow.

Love like you has never love before.

Love the whole package.

Be strong and fight for your right to love.

Be prepared and expect the unexpected.

Be true to yourself.

Have faith in your love.

Have faith to the one you love.

Have faith to yourself.

You tend to do stupid things.

You tend to believe a lot of crap.

You tend to listen to whatever you just want to listen.

You tend to see whatever you just want to see.

You become unreasonable sometimes though you’re usually reasonable.

You are willing to take the risk though you’re afraid.

You are prepared to cry a river just for the heck of his smile.

You feel the connection between you and him

You can see him without opening your eyes

You can hear him though he’s not talking

You can feel him yet his not around.


Love is a wonderful thing 
created by God for us to experience and cherish. 


We can love a lot of times, 
we can love as many as we can 
but there is only one very special love for us. 


You are lucky if you found him 
here in your journey in earth 
for the world is so big 
that not everyone of us could meet 
the one that is meant for us. 


Don’t lose hope 
we can always try if we stumble down the road. 


You’ll never know what would happen next 
if you wouldn’t go out 
and be brave and take the risk.


Love and live. 
Live for love.